To Myself

(Originally 1st Novemeber 2006, 12:44 am)

My grandchild, I love you so.
So painful it was when I had to go.
You left me a note of how you would miss me,
and I was afraid you would become someone you shouldn't be.
I thought if I ended it earlier, then things would be easier;
But by my miscalculation, it only made the pain greater.
And in my last few days before I had to leave,
I spared much thought to ease your grief.
They said your banging the wall would scare me away,
but you had no wrong, I was always here to stay.
I didn't want you to remind yourself I wasn't here
and so in your dreams I never did appear.
Instead I left this note at the back of your mind,
and you finding it made everything fine.
In case you still don't have a clue,
I'm always behind and watching over you.